There are so many things that I wish I could do in a day and amazingly tax returns is not one of them. I hate that everytime I get on here all I can think to do is rant about work. (But its all I ever seem to be doing with my time so I guess its inevitable. See video) So this time I wont do anything but mention that I hate my job, my cube with blue walls, and that I feel like a rat in a maze everyday.
OK. Now that that is off my chest.... I feel like I'm smarter than this. I can do and be more than I'm allowing myself to be. I need to be more. I can feel it in my blood. The aching desire to strive and struggle with the experiences of doing new and different things. I need to do more than just sit in a cube and rot away, day after day. These statements I know to be truths about the person I am. I know them like I know my name, who my mother is and where I've been and what I've done. I've had teachers, family, friends, strangers tell me I have so much more potential than I allow myself to tap into.
I'm already 25. If I'm going to do something, I need to do it now.
So inevitably the question I find myself asking over and over again is : What's the next step?
What are my options? Are they really limitless? "I can do anything I set my mind to" is a state of mind I have been raised on. But can I really? I can't change my history, who I am. But are those really the only limits?
What should I do???
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Last week we came back from a 5 day trip to San Antonio- just us girls. It was so much fun. We got to see San Antonio and visit all the attractions. Mel and I had several margaritas and Mari and I got sunburned. lol All in all it was a great trip and I got to mark off something from my 101 list. I hope my sisters had as much fun as I did. I always enjoy my sister time with them. I think it's really important to make time for family moments. These days they're rare and I miss them.